Thankful, Grateful, & Blessed

Tis the season to be grateful they say. Being grateful isn’t suppose to be limited to just Thanksgiving. The seasons shouldn’t dictate our gratitude, we should have gratitude toward God and his daily gifts to us everyday. I celebrate turkey day according to the records they teach you about, Columbus and so forth. Having a meal of Thanksgiving with the native people of what we call the U.S.A. Everyday I wake up I thank God, I show my gratitude to him everyday, all the while seeing more and more everyday just how very blessed I am. Not to sound like I am bragging at all but it’s true. God has brought me through some really difficult times in my life and it has not been easy either. My journey is not one for the weak but I know God designed me and built me for such times and for such as a time for this. Where I am at with my relationship with God has not been an easy place to get to because of all the trials I have experienced. It was through those trials that has made me into the person that I am today. The loving, caring, smiling, lighthearted woman that I am today. My heart regardless has always been big and I enjoy making people smile and helping most of all. In whatever way that I am able to, precisely why I went into healthcare, not for the money. Money was the least of my concern because I felt like God led me there. I had to make that change my soul was leading me. Let me say, I learned a lot of things. About people and the amount of suffering one had to endure dealing with what they call kidney disease. A lot of times that was enough to break your heart if you had one. I was always overly nice to my patients because I wanted their time there to be as easy and as painless as possible. Which I know was appreciated by them and being able to encourage someone to smile a little. When it became like an assembly line it started to bother me. Nevertheless that learned a new level of gratitude and a new desire to make a impact for God’s glory. Lots of praying a rearranging happened to the point I left my job with lots of knowledge, more than I wanted to know actually but I’m still thankful for it all. I wouldn’t take nothing back either. I got some valuable lessons. Through my struggles and through my pain of accepting change, I praised and thank God daily. Change is inevitable and letting him have control of situations is hard but it’s worth it. Worth it all because he gave his only son for our chance at everlasting life. I am Thankful this holiday season for our ancestors as if they had not traveled here then I would not be who I am now. But our ancestors didn’t just start there, it goes way back back. Therefore I give God all the Glory I can this season also because his blood is why I am actually here today, through his creation in the beginning, his sacrifice. With that we all have the chance at peace with Everlasting love, that only he can give. Don’t forget to be thankful, Grateful, and have the knowing of your everyday blessings given to you through him and his creation. We make life more complicated than it has to be its much more simple than you may see. If you open your eyes and take a peak, his world is just a more beautiful place to be. Happy Thanksgiving y’all I hope everyone has thr best turkey day and don’t forget to praise God for being able to celebrate it. Stay Blessed y’all 🙌

Certainty

Things of certainty are few and far between. The only that I am certain of is I serve a mighty God capable of the impossible. He is the possibility of all things good according to his will and word. Jesus modeled for us through his short time on earth and I thank God it was recorded and passed down to us to learn from. If it isn’t God’s will I don’t want it and I will adjust accordingly but until then I will treat people the way I should and try my best to do things as I should. Never have I found certainty in anything of this world including people. Good people with good intentions are few in today’s society because most people are out for self. We are called to serve and serve for his glory not ours. If you carry misery in your heart you must know it is not of him. That just tells me you haven’t completely handed over your entire being to him and being accepting of his will for your life, his purpose. Your way may work awhile but it will cave in on you eventually without God front and center. I know it has happened many times to me. People left, betrayed me, I became strangers to many people that I love because of uncertainty. The only certain fact is that God has always been with me and picked me up when I fell. He has carried me when I didn’t even realize it. His certainty is the only reason I am here today, for his plan and purpose. Still I Rise as I will until I complete my purpose and the uncertain people won’t affect the certainty I have in my God. It is finished cried the lord and we were all saved by his blood he shed for each and everyone of us if we accept him and believe. With that your battle is won, leaving your burdens at the cross, changing your ways and living as he intends. Having been molded by this world I can say it’s not easy but for the peace and his promises it is more than worth it. That is the only certainty that I have ever found in my life and that is enough for me. Stay Blessed y’all 🙌

Discernment

Discernment is more important than one may think. Not following the correct way can lead you astray. I have always had a big heart and it has gotten me into some messy situations through out my life. The problem is God was not leading me and I know this now. Having ask him to forgive me on my knees screaming and crying, to just drive. Take my life over God and lead me your way, what you want for me and my life. I don’t wanna drive no more. I turned it all over to him and it has been a process to say the least. He showed me things I never asked to see and made me feel things that I never asked to feel. I had it twisted all along. My heart with people has always been in the right place, whether it’s known or not and God has always kept me whether I felt it or knew it or not. It honestly is an amazing peace that he floods you with, internally, soulfully. But you gotta go through it internally. I can honestly say I would not wish my walk in life on another’s shoulders nor anything bad to another, regardless of one’s actions toward me. I forgave it all because I want him to forgive me just as he has. Most importantly I forgave myself because let’s face it since each and everyone of us embody the Holy Spirit and our body is our temple. We have to be good to it as well and part of that is forgiving oneself. Every since I got clean in 2011, I have not been them same. I have came short since many times but I continue with my relationship with God and its stronger everyday. I have to ask for forgiveness everyday. It can be a battle but it’s easier everyday. It becomes like the air you breath you need it. Everyone has a gift, a natural gift and you may be pretty amazed at what it is. Through my life wanting to please others I have gotten far away from who I was. And to be honest that is exactly what he is looking for and oh how he will use it. Don’t let the ways of this world drive away who you are. Pray for the discernment of what’s right, not wrong. Its actually more simple than you may think, you have a rule book to go by, ten simple laws. Everything is about money in this world and it will all be left behind regardless in the end. To live in his will is as close as you will be here on this earth and if I can have some here I promise you that is what I am going for. God has the glory for my life and no devil in hell can take that away. Best believe I will do as he says. My discernment is on point 👉 👈 with him. My life was messy and off point without giving him my whole heart. Life is a journey and what we make of it determines our destiny. The free will to choose. Choose wisely on this journey for it is what determines your fate for eternity. Acts 1:8 is a good verse to read. Well the whole book is interesting to be honest. What journeys they all took. I’m gonna be one of those to the best of my ability because Jesus set me free. Stay Blessed y’all 🙌

Trials

When I started in Healthcare in 2018, the field that I started in, kidney care hit close to home for me. I was really excited to enter this field and learn more about kidney disease, cause and effect. Back in 2004, my brother had a kidney transplant provided to him from my sister. His kidneys started to fail him after years of health issues and all kinds of medicine he had to take due to a condition he developed in high school. Well long story short, he ended up with cancer in 2020 and went through a powerful round of chemo and radiation treatment. Not to mention COVID everywhere and us basically living at work. It was hard to swallow this and I purposely didn’t go see him due to carrying something to him during all of this pandemic mess. They gave him a 30% chance to beat that rapid growing cancer and he let me know this afterward. He didn’t want to worry anyone but he rang his bell at the end. I never cried so much in all my life for the relief I felt when I found out. It was a long hard year and I also ended up having a surgery at the end of 2020. Sick working the whole time until I physically couldn’t do it anymore because of a constant pressure and dizziness I was experiencing. All in all God brought both us through that mess and his kidney works better now than it did before. His cancer disappeared, so don’t you tell me he can’t do something. See my heart was in a different place in that field that most don’t know anything about. I was there to learn and to be a helping hand for others and I accomplished that. Though my road led me out I am grateful for the experience and all the things I know now and with that I will take with me the ability to help in different ways. Because my God made me able and willing to do his work I will continue on where he leads. My heart is big and always has been and that makes me beautiful in ways that the ungodly will never understand. God can do miracles and does everyday especially for those that believe and trust fully in him. I don’t have to see to believe because he has showed me the entirety of my life through many things. Precisely why I write to help others and give hope where you may have lost it. God is a promise keeper, a chain breaker, a light in the darkness, he is everything that everyone needs all you have to do is just believe ✨️ 🙏 ❤️ 🙌 Stay Blessed y’all 🙌

Broken

I believe with all of my heart every trial every harahship that we may go through in life can be used for the greater good. I believe God uses broken people like myself to rescue other broken people that doesn’t see the light at the end of a tunnel. On some level I can relate to the majority of people through roads that I have traveled through my life. And I can honestly say that God hasn’t always been placed in my life where he should have been. Through a lot of hard learning I learned a lot of my mistakes happened because of God not being number one in my life. I was all about self a lot, self indulgence in things or people. God has picked me up more than once in my life and carried me when i didn’t even realize it. He is always with each and everyone of us regardless if you realize it. It really is like they say whatever voice you feed will grow in you. The good loving voice or the bad greedy voice, which do you feed more? God is all loving and means no harm to anyone because we all are his children. He will discipline you too when you do wrong or think wrong. It is a very narrow path that many don’t find because of being wrapped up in the ways of this world today. I hope and pray that everyone will seek and find and know he is waiting for his children to come home with him. It’s just being a good person honestly and following the laws of Moses. Jesus Christ was the law of Moses. He was the example and his sacrifice made it possible for everyone to gain entry to heaven. Stay Blessed y’all 🙌

Love

Love is gentle, love is kind. Love is many things but what love is not is many things also. Selfish, being greedy, lustful, vengeful are attributes of what love is not. What drives the emotion that you may be feeling? Having forgiveness toward a person or their actions without an apology is not easy but the need to do so is far underrated. It’s not for the person but for you. Thinking about oneself all the time is selfish especially when other people are involved. Being lustful can be many things from sex, to drugs and alcohol, money, material possessions etc. You can be lustful with many things and if those things are above your relationship with God, your family, it’s wrong. Being vengeful is wrong regardless of what someone may have done to you. Most likely it’s a misunderstanding anyway but that should only be in the hands of the lord. His job is to convict because regardless of what you say or do vengeance will always be his and in his way. Love is the model God sent to earth. His son came and modeled for us on how to be. He was ridiculed, hated, and beaten to death for us to have a chance at redemption to live in that place he went to prepare for us. All the things you may be facing today has no power through God. He defeated darkness the day he sacrificed his only son and I assure you nothing is too big for him to hold. As long as you leave those things at the foot of the cross and move forward as he would have you will enter a world that you never thought existed. Through him the search you are on will be over and that is the greatest form of love you will ever know. God is Love ❤️ and no evil will ever conquer him. Forgive yourself for not knowing because of the mold you grew into based on the society today or your upbringing. Be willing to learn and unlearn the things you were taught because the fact of the matter is this world has been ruled by the devil for far too long and it’s been normal. It’s time we rise and show the darkness exactly what love is and is not. Our God is so mighty, so powerful, and so awesome and my goal is for you to know that. Through my life, my testimony, if he can do it for me I know he can do it for you. Nothing or nobody in this world can give you a love like his. I pray everyone experiences that awesome love. Stay Blessed y’all 🙌

Without God

To say life is a roller coaster ride is an understatement. As I sit here and think today, which is not unusual, a realization hit me. The highs and lows of our lives are dependent on our choices. The choices that I have made in the past was based with God not in the center of things the way it should have been. That is where mistakes were made, bad decisions, a rough road, what ever the case may be he was not number one all the time. I have not ever in my entire life had a more intimate relationship with my God as I do now. And for those who once knew me, let me introduce myself to you again. I am a anointed and appointed vessel for my God, my heavenly father, as is each and everyone of us. I can say more than anytime in my life that I have been faithful listening to him and letting him guide my steps. He has to the point of sitting me down to work on my relationship with him. I am not for the faint of heart sometimes but I guarantee my actions or words are sent through wisdom of his knowing. He has removed me from jobs this year, from friendship, from this world and opened my eyes to things I didn’t want to see or accept. The journey is narrow and the line is very fine that can be crossed. I’m a work in progress and I will be until the day that I do go home. Without God at the center you have nothing. If we as people place him where he should be rightful placed this world would be so much of a better place. We are all worthy and able through his son, his sacrifice to us. I know I will not let his peace pass me by because I have experienced it. My entire life has been my testimony and guess what, I’m using it to help others that may need it. To humbly lay it all out and not care is the best gift that I can give, my heart full of love for everyone ♥️ Lay it all down, without God you can’t go home with me and I want each and everyone of you there with me celebrating on the other side. Without God I felt like I was nothing but with God I am his everything and that and pursuing his purpose is all I need for me. Too Blessed to be stressed. With God everything is possible 🙏 ❤️ ✨️. Stay Blessed y’all 🙌

My Prayer

I write in hope of one thing and one thing only. To tell my story, my experiences with a hope so strong that just one person can find and experience God for themselves. No matter what you may have been through don’t ever lose hope because God is always standing beside you. When you can finally stop and take the time to listen and discern exactly what he seeks of you, the beauty will shine. The beauty of you, his creation that is surrounding each and everyone of us. His gifts to us were not to be trampled on but took care of. This is people, places and things. He gave us everything to sustain us in the beginning and it’s still here today, his promises. My life has not been easy, although I may carry myself as it has been. It’s only because God is my peace and owns my heart. My road has been difficult but I praise his holy name everyday. And I will continue to do so for eternity because I believe. I believe in his grace and mercy because I have experienced it more than once. More than once I have fallen and got back up because he picked me back up and carried me. It has not been easy but worth it. All my brokenness was put back together at his feet and I am hear to tell you he can do it for you too. No matter what it may be it is never too much for him. So I want to encourage you today if you haven’t seeked a relationship with God know that he is found through our model his son Jesus Christ, who gave his life for our inequities. To believe is to see and oh what a vision it will be. I pray through some piece of me that was once broken that you may be able to mend what is broken in you. I humble myself before him everyday to use me as he sees fit. This is my prayer for you and in all you do make it good. Nothing that this world has to offer is more valuable than his love ❤️ Stay Blessed y’all 🙌

Discovering and Uncovering

Last few years I have been slowly coming back to the person that I have always meant to be. Discovering myself through the eyes of God, uncovering who he meant for me to be. All the while being sick on medication for over two years ended up having a surgery. Working full time, doing school full time, trying to take care of home life all the while dealing with a husband with alcoholism. The closer I have gotten to God and to where I feel that he intends for me to be career wise, the harder it has been. Not to mention numerous occasions that I had reason to believe him being unfaithful in our marriage. I’m not perfect and I have made many mistakes in life, I get that everyone makes them. I’m a forgiving person because I want the same for me with I stand before my heavenly father. Lord knows I want that more than anything and the first time in my life that I put him first everything falls apart. Not questioning his plans but damn does it hurt a lot. Soulfully tired in an understatement to the pain. I am no stranger to pain thats why I can see it miles away. Experience has taught me many things in life and well I guess you gonna learn this time. Too old for this mess. I am a builder, a climber and it is all for the greater good. I will accept nothing less than a partner that wants to build with me and can value and respect my visions. If that is too much shift to the other lane. Three years battling for lack of effort is enough. Pray for me and my family, only the lord can have the wheel. Regardless I am still blessed and highly favored. Still I Rise!!! Stay Blessed y’all 🙌

Power

I see stuff posted all the time through various platforms, nobody brought me through anything but me. Or people say I’m self made. I will be the first to say if it wasn’t for God I would not be here today. Throughout my life even if I put myself in pickles he brought me right up out of it. If it wasn’t for his grace and mercy and him telling me when and when not to move. It absolutely amazes me when I look back and see from where I am sitting today. The people in this world today are mean and cruel more than one may know. Selfish and greedy and self fulfilled people. The fabric that I am made of they don’t make anymore never seems so real. My heart to help is genuine it always has been. Nobody should have to suffer in whatever it may be. Everyone has downfalls but through all the mistakes that I have made I chose to take a road less traveled by today’s standards. Innerly I have done more work than you could imagine but it has been worth it. To find peace in the arms of the person that I have been searching for my whole life, God. He is amazing and nothing or nobody compares to his love for each and everyone of us no matter what we have come short in. My God is amazing, awesome, and true just as he is for you. The God who made me made you and everything he has given to you. His grace is sufficient always has been and always will be. Power is knowing God and his purpose for your life and all your plans will prosper aligning with his purpose for your life. The power of God is unmatched 🙌 Stay Blessed y’all