Trial and Error

That seems to have been a cycle that I refuse to keep going round and round in, trial and error. Intentions are everything behind actions, whether those are understood or not. When you develop a relationship with God, your eyes will open in a way that they were not before. He really has a funny way of showing a person, too, but I am thankful for it all. My life has been based on lessons the average person doesn’t experience, and I am finally okay with that. The last few years for me have been a struggle because, well, I really have had to lean on the Lord more than ever. Due to many different areas in my life. We all have the ability to establish this relationship with him, but as individuals, it is ultimately our choice. There comes a time when the fighter deserves to be fought for. Some things are out of our hands, and with his help, he will help a person discern what they are. That’s why I am at peace in an unusual way that most can’t understand. The things that I have learned through life have been due to trial and error, not something that is learned in school. My experiences make me a special kind of daughter in his eyes, and that is all that matters. My confidence in the Lords ability to bring what is needed toward me has been based on my experiences, and that can’t be taken away from me. My goodness is known from my heart, and my intentions have and will always be good, precisely why I will always be taken care of by him. Some may say free spirit, but I say purpose. Purpose for the greater good, not selfish reasons. I will no longer be manipulated into playing the game of thinking otherwise. It’s hard to understand when you aren’t in the same book. So, to those who may feel discouraged in any area, just think trial and error. It’s not over until he says so, and that is the almighty word. Be encouraged that through him, trials and errors only make us stronger. Stay Blessed y’all 🙌


God is strength, and without him, we are nothing. The Creator our God, of all things, thought enough of each and every one of us to create us for a purpose. A relationship with him is what will give us strength to carry on through past transgressions or life in general. For example, I am a creative person in many areas so therefore I can reach the unreachable that others can not. We as society have been molded to fit a grand narrative not placed on us by God. Built on hate, greed, jealousy, envy, and pride. Of which all of these because of the negativity ultimately leads to destruction. Why follow suit to this when the alternative is so much better and more peaceful. We look to things for strength in so many areas that will ultimately lead to destruction if they are on the negative side of the spectrum. A change of perspective and a change of actions is needed for us as a human race to continue surviving. Surviving at its finest is found with God as a relationship with him is needed to continue forward in this cruel world. My prayers go out to every single living being on this entire planet that we wake up and realize the peace we all seek is found with God through our Lord and savior Jesus Christ. Recognize he was the sacrifice that he sent on this earth to be a living model to do good and be good and to be fishermen for our father. Fishermen, for the glorious kingdom, he promised us all ultimately. All is borrowed here as none will take anything with you, but what is carried in your soul. The good we send and put back. All of his creations should be protected and given respect. As one is no better than the other. So if strength is what you may be looking for today, my prayer is that you seek God for that strength. Easy it is not because tests will surely come after that. The rewards are worth so much more, though. The peace and love that is received can only come from our Father, which art in heaven. May his arms wrap around you. Stay Blessed y’all 🙌


Heartbreak, whatever the case may be, is hard to deal with on your own. God makes everything possible to deal with, no matter the circumstances we may face. Grief is one of the hardest battles to fight when you haven’t been raised to lean on our Father for support. Many lose battles due to grief because they will try to replace the void with things of this world. That was what I did when I lost my daddy. I didn’t know how to deal with things, and I took the most convenient route at the time. Nobody tried to understand or seemed to care enough to. And that is a low place to be when the only support system you felt like you had was gone. I wasn’t taught by my parents to lean toward God, but I also realized that they were not taught that ither. Everyone who is still alive today is in their learning journey. Don’t hold on to anger or hostility toward each other, especially families, because we are all still in school per say. We just honestly never know what tomorrow holds. This is the place where we learn better and be better, and there is no in between. The in between is doubt and fear and is something we should not even entertain, and if we do and are still here, you should be damn proud of still having breathe in your lungs. I know I am proud of what I have overcome, but I only did it due to God’s Grace and Mercy. Nothing I ever did was alone because he has always been there with me whether I realized it or not. God is the only reason I am still here today. For a purpose, and that is my mission. To fish for men for his kingdom by planting seeds near and far. Before, I never knew, but the establishment of my relationship with him brought me to this truth. I pray everyone is able to find their way back home to our Father. Peace and Love ❤️ no more war. I hope the realization of just how blessed you truly are dawns on each and everyone of us in the biggest way possible. 🙏 Stay Blessed y’all 🙌

Treading Backwards

Healing requires treading backward internally. If life hasn’t given a person the best circumstances, those circumstances must be healed. A person has to forgive whatever it is, making them look back or trigger them. In the past year, I personally had to stop and analyze my life. The mistakes that I have made both due to my actions and others. Forgiveness is what has to be done in order to move forward rightfully. Treading backward in your mind is not easy because confrontation of hurt is not easy, but it is worth it. It’s worth every stab in the back you may have received or whatever the case may be. As far as relationships go, I have had my fair share of those, but rest assured when I say that I don’t tread backward into those again, I don’t I never have. Past is past, and all have been both blessings and lessons for me. When I go forward, that is exactly what I will do, forward movement. Not that I don’t care, but I know my worth, in God’s eyes. Before, I was unknowingly aware of this, but now I am fully aware. All my life, the trials that I have faced have shaped me into exactly who he wanted me to be for his purpose. So, I am thankful for them all. I hold no resentment toward anyone. That is why I am at peace now. Peace with it all regardless of what it was. When we figure out it’s not about us at all but for him and his purpose, ultimately, you will succeed in life. God has always made a way for me and always will. Stuff can be replaced, and it doesn’t mean nothing in the end. Through Jesus Christ, we can find the purpose of our being. Only through him will it be done successfully 👌 💯 So if you haven’t found a relationship with God, I pray that you do and you water it the way you should. His love never will leave or forsake you, nor will it die. Seek, and you shall find. Behold, he stands at the door and knocks. Stay blessed, y’all 🙌


Finding God through Jesus Christ is all that is needed. That is when enough is enough. No sin is greater than the other, and nobody is ever too dirty to be cleaned by the blood of the Lamb. That was his purpose to come, show us how to live and give us all that chance. What is sewn is what will reap in life. Nobody is better than the other when it comes to sin as one is no greater than the next. It is sin. Stop running and just accept him. Running from bad decisions or whatever the case may be. Repenting to him and changing your ways is all that is needed is between the person and Our Father. Change and doing better in this world makes it hard because of all the evil in it. Our society has literally been built with pure evil, and it’s sad. My life has not been based on the best decisions, but he has always brought me through and has always been by my side. Perfection doesn’t exist, but I strive to do my best at whatever I do and with the best intentions, regardless of the side eyed glances. To get to a place of peace is not an easy task, and I am harder on myself than I should be. Men need to find out what it is a man should be, and women should do the same.. Women and men are supposed to come together as one and fulfill a purpose set forth for God’s glory. Until things change and are done as he intends life will be chaotic because it is not according to his will. One woman and one man is what it says, not whoever you want whenever. It doesn’t work like that. When the feeling of not enough creeps in just know you are enough in his eyes. Enough so much so that if his plans are followed, happiness will proceed as he intends. Two people have to be on the same page, and if they aren’t, it’s doomed. The people that have come in and out of my life have one thing in common, and that is the questioning of God’s existence. Out of all the things that I have been through, I never have ever dared question him nor will I ever. My belief will never be swayed by unbelievers, and I have always and will always be okay because regardless, he has never left me. God is alive and lives in everyone and everything, and I pray that everyone finds their Enough and that is only with God our creator our everything. Peace be with all in his world of Enough. Stay Blessed y’all 🙌

Trama and Triggers

With God All Things Are Possible. Through my journey, my lessons have not came easy, as with all human beings, regardless of the free will choice to actually stop, slow down and really exam the emotions. Emotions that one feels on the negative side play a vital role in the trigger of an unhealed trama that one may have. Since God is the Root of our being we should act in a way that he instructed in the beginning. He was and still is the forgiving, loving, God that created us and everything surrounding us, for our benefit. The negative side is the one that doesn’t want us to move as he intends for us to move, for his greater good and purpose. Therefore when the mind feels under attack that hindrance is not of God. God wants the best for us all but the work has to be done through a heart felt free will choice. Forgive the people that mishandled situations that transpired in your life. To sit back and look and realize that they were unhealed and looking for their identity just as it was with you, is the biggest load off the shoulders ever. This world is full of people and their mistakes and when the acknowledgement comes that this is our training ground for God’s greater purpose things will be seen more clearly. He said thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven, the Lords Prayer. Resentment is something that is no longer held in my heart for anyone as I want to see us all at his table. That is loving one another and in a big way. Mistakes are a big part of life and learning from those is how we grow in spirit. The world today that has been built is not in spirit but in self. Slow down get to know yourself on a deeper level and accept people as they are because on their time-line they will heal when they make that choice to make the change for the better, free will choice. The acceptance of our Lord God, through his sacrifice of his only son is what makes it possible. My opinion on the control that has been used through religion will not change as my swimming on this issue has been in the deep down bottomless pit of this life. The history left behind for us as humans has been misrepresented and misused for selfish reasons of control of whatever the case may have been or still is. It’s actually pretty simple but we let our flesh stand in the way of lots of things. Our needs and wants that are not on a spiritual level. God has a purpose for all pain and all struggles but we as humans have to take on the initiative to discover what they may be. Life on earth is nothing short of hard because of society and what we have been molded into believing or thinking. Change has been my middle name because my identity was not found until he picked me up and carried me, speaking of God. Before my actions were different but now my voice has been found through my prayers and my gifts. My acceptance of less than what my God wants for me and his kingdom will not do as moving with him is what will be done. My worth stands just as it always will, regardless of other people. I cannot stress enough to heal your hearts as we never know the time that is left. Move with God and his intentions and see how life will transform right before the world to see. Thought you knew me think again as God is in my story now and has been from the beginning. My stubbornness has caused me to learn the hard way. Once I was blind but now I see, so much more for the whole world to see. Stay Blessed y’all 🙌

Lack Of

Everything in this life is fleeting except what is hid away in our soul. In today’s society money is essential for survival on many levels. What it buys is fleeting and does not create something that is meaningful, on a soul level. Meaningful things, true happiness comes from having a relationship with God and acting accordingly within his standards. Temporary voids are filled with money, the void of love for whatever it may be. Money can’t buy your way to heaven but it makes life easier here. Prioritizing your life According to God’s standards is what will bring happiness to our lives. Not your will your way. Buying this that and the other brings temporary happiness and those that have not done without the things that really mean the most probably won’t understand this. Stop taking things for granted and being selfish. Been there and done that, thinking things will always remain regardless of the way they are treated. The Lord gives and he takes away and if the thought of it never happening to you crosses your mind better think again. The questions of why me lord gets the answer of why not you. Prioritize life according to his standards and see what changes. Honestly the little things in life means the most and what you choose to do according to his will. God has high standards and so do I because his purpose drives me now. My actions in the past did not aline but i will continue the rest of my days making sure that they do. Stay Blessed y’all 🙌

God is Faithful

Everyone has a story and none are the same. My story has been filled with lots of ups and downs but God has always been faithful to me. I haven’t always been faithful to him but he has always been faithful to me. Nobody has always been faithful to God but he has always been faithful to us all. Simply waking up in the morning to get another chance at another day. To be able to live and breathe in his creation. We should never take for granted what he has bestowed apon us as gifts in this life. The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away. Because he loves us all. He created this entire universe for our benefit and thought enough of everyone to include us all in his purpose. Stop taking advantage of his gifts and being greedy. At this point we should start putting way more back than we take if we expect generations after us to thrive. Everything works together for the good to those that believe and this is something I feel very strongly about. God is faithful and set us up from the beginning when he created earth don’t let today’s society deter you from that realty. This land, the entire universe is Gods property loaned to us. If you seek you will find, behold he stands at the door of your heart and knocks. This world is not worth losing your soul for, he has so much more in store for those that believe. Belief in his sacrifice is what makes this a possibility for us all. The sacrifice of his only Son, Jesus Christ our Lord and savior. His Holy Spirit lives across space and time through everyone and everything that he created. Nothing can ever change that. Free Will is what gives the option and those free will choices we make leads to bad news sometimes but he is a Faithful God that forgives and let’s us make the choice to change for the better, his way. Hardest battle ever but worth every ounce of the pain. Rest assured God is faithful and is always true no storm is ever to much for him to break through. Stay Blessed y’all 🙌


Appreciation and being grateful goes hand in hand. Slow down and take a look around and gives thanks for what is present in your life. The people, the places, and the things. The smaller things that we take for granted in life, mean the most in the end. What we were able to do or to give to others. It’s not what we buy because ultimately that will rot away. Above all these things the most important is Love. Love for all and for everything that God has given us from the beginning of time. You can’t mistreat people and expect them to keep giving a part of themselves that they will never get back. You can keep mistreating our natural habitat and except her to keep giving back. The things that will have by the grace of God can’t be mistreated because they too will soon have an end. We have to give in order to receive. We can’t keep taking from our environment because of greed and personal gain. We need to stop and start giving back. Put nature back, giving more than we take. Give back to people even if they can’t give back to you, a difference and an example is set through kindness. We have to do the work because the grace of God is what enables us to be able to still be here to do the work. For him, his glory, his purpose. My perspective on life is different than most and I am finally okay with that. I have carried shame for a big part of my life due to my actions and decisions that I have made through my journey but no more. I am who I am and that is who he made me to be and silent is not included in that. My fears crippled me many times in the past but no more. For my God has overcame it all and what pain he endured for all of us. Give back unselfishly and see what transpires. We all have the choice ultimately to do what’s right so choose wisely and reap the benefits of God Almighty. Stay Blessed y’all 🙌

God’s Grace

God’s grace for us as human beings is unmatched. He sent his one and only Son to model a life in which he expects us to follow. Showing grace for us in such a way enables us to be born again. This can be a painful process and only with him can it be done. Depending on the situation or the trama that a person has carried with them. We have all done things that is called sin but it’s not too late. When you acknowledge that the battle is on a spiritual level, the easier it will be. God is the living spirit in all things he has created. Therefore the good outweighs the bad because he won that battle and gave us choice. A choice, to make a change for the better. I pray everyone makes that change for the good, it’s never too late and your burdens are not so heavy that he hasn’t already carried them for you by giving his life. Jesus Christ came as our savior, rose as our redeemer, and will be back to reign as the King he has always been. I don’t know about you but I chose a long time ago the higher road before I even realized it. Took a lot of side roads all the while learning many valuable lessons. The fact of the matter is its not always easy but the effort is far more valuable than anything this world has to offer. Life is not something to be toyed with but something to use to make a good difference. One to benefit our human race for his glory. Miracle work does exist but only through our lord and savior Jesus Christ. He will show you the way, his way if you let him. Stay Blessed y’all 🙌