Numb

During my life I have been through many life changing experiences that have learned me many different things. Relationship wise I have been in long term relationships three life changing ones for me. The hardest thing that I have endured with each of those is the trust being broken. Caught my first husband messing around with some chick he worked with way before I had my baby and boy. I tried to get over it but I never really did. Second same shit but I was in a rehab facility for thirty days so there is that. Third chatting it up on video calls will the ex’s and messenger with another. I really try with people intentionally for commitment but I always end up with the same feeling, numb over the lack of respect. It catches up to a person after years of the same shit, you see it coming miles away. My standards are not much to ask for, honesty, love,respect, and loyalty . Maybe my depth as a person is scary for some, who knows. I know though without a doubt, I love me and the more I do the less numb I feel…

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